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Category: Memories

Things never said

As years go by, the sweetness grows fonder,
Beautifying the memories, of love so yonder.
Ah move on, the soul cries, crippled by time,
And yet the heart keeps, the sound of love still a chime.

 

It’s time to go back to life, to unfulfilled dreams,
Beyond those sorrows, and emotional streams.
Move on, move beyond, a past so dead,
Of conversations that linger, and things never said.

Memories

Certain experiences have a deep effect on your perspective. Sometimes, you meet someone so different in their personality and yet they have an innate sense of oneness with you. Fate, sometimes conspires against your wishes and yet at others times is the solitary recluse of those lost. Such unexplained rendezvous, inexplicable serendipitous experience of two diverse lives touching each other and then blurring out is beautifully mysterious. Sometimes I wonder, perhaps, it is such experiences that propel our lives and infuse courage within our hearts.

Emotions, within, are intricately complex expressions of our souls. Only a few people in your life would ever be able to touch the very depths of your self. Some years later when you sit down and think of all those people that have touched your lives in some special way, I believe, there would be very few. There are innumerable acquaintances, a group of friends, a few of them very close to your heart, a set of your family; yet a very minuscule percentage of  people that are worthy of witnessing your own life.

This journey gets weirder as you tread the path to your destination. You would meet people you cannot let go; friends you do not want to part with but you realize that moving on is the best path. It is intriguing to realize that some people come into your life, with no rhyme or reason, and depart ever so abruptly and yet leave a sweet little dream still clinging in your heads through those solitary nights. Those memories, memoirs you shared are what remains left of them. You wonder, in a disappointing anguish, why can things never be permanent and detest this ever eluding transitions in life. There are really no answers. There is just an acceptance and understanding of the rules of this game called life. Some things are just meant to be.

In a few years down the line, one day you would be happily wondering what lies ahead, and may be some of those memories might spring up in your mind, from the buried realms of the subconscious mind; realizations of what could have been and how life could have been so different than that it is today. Could you have done something different, or may be chosen a different, to realize a different destiny. These memories, probably, are just a way to remind you of all the beautiful moments, with those beautiful people you ever had, bringing a sense of gratitude towards fate itself. You might just wish them happiness and love, for you would always know that you have moved ahead of that phase of togetherness. You might wonder whether those people ever think of you, of those memories, whether those moments do flood their hearts bringing in tears to their eyes, do they ever sit down lonely reminding themselves of choices made mutually that now define your lives.

Sometimes, the mystery never stops to amuse me. The idea that moving on, forgetting everything, is the best way to live a life seems implausible, and yet is very practical. I guess, there are certain things that come so close to your hearts that forgetting those experiences is never an option. One learns to live by those memories and acceptances of this love’s fate is the most peaceful way to keep moving ahead.

Of life’s impermanence

Life is a transition and emotions are the essence of this wonderful existence.  Love, separation, happiness, sadness all clogged into a single moment – sometimes it is like that. Bitter sweet memories of the past flash by, sometimes, and in those moments one realizes that may be there is more to all of this than we could have ever understood.

The last meetings, the last chats, the last walks, the last dinner, etc. etc. bring in a melancholy within one’s heart. However, there is something utterly beautiful about those moments. They make you realize that your existence did make a mark and leave an impression on someone else’s life and that you, too, were a cause for their happiness. That look of anguish, of an unwilling choice to separate and move on with your own life on someone’s face summarizes a very intriguing and sweet little story that no amount of words could ever elucidate. I find it very satisfying the look on my friends’ face when they miss me . It says that I did make their lives beautiful in some way or the other. Life is awesome the way it is designed to be. It is because of the people we meet and then part away and then remember those memories later when we meet again.

Life is a wonderful amalgamation of experiences – a mixture of having loved someone, of having been torn apart from that feeling, of having found the best friends and then moving on to a lonely journey, of having jumped high enough and then fallen face first to the ground, of having lost everything but hope and then exceeding your own expectations, of having experienced someone’s love etc. etc. It serves as a refreshing feeling driving away  predictability from life. I like life the way it is – a mix of happiness with a tinge of sadness. 

Go, live and enjoy what shows, 
Never to miss that moment again.
There are highs and with them lows,
Life is pleasure, with a sweet little pain.

Love – the elixir of life

And sometimes in love, lie desires obscured,
From the world, as the heart yearns, uncured.
Ah, there in rests the secret, the elixir of life,
Of passionate existence, victories in every strife.

And some realize that with its sweetness,
Others, feel the pain, of perpetual sourness.
Ah, that feeling sinks in, of sentiments so dear,
And emotions jumble, blurred and yet so clear.

The rain

Hark, the tinkling drops, festive mirth,
Experience, the blessing, of joy’s birth.
Behold, the drizzle, the dancing rain,
Liberate, your soul, of scorching pain.

Smile of acceptance

In solitude, restlessly lies a soul,
In remembrance of a dear one.
So close, once, and yet so far,
And now lonely, left with none.

Ever so unhappy, unyielding,
Trying in vain, to comprehend.
What life had in store, battling,
With a smile of acceptance.

Dreamy by the day, sleepless by night,
Lonely in a crowd, friendless with comrades.
Lost in transition between acceptance & denial,
Disillusioned, in love, in a reluctant surrender.

Sweetened thoughts, soured memories,
Confounded paths, a future so hazy.
What could have been, what is to be,
The differences, ripping off the heart within.

A lot of lessons, did the soul learn,
Yet could not fend off the separation.
A regret, a grief it carries heavily,
The essence of love, it had to realize.

Ever so moving, forth and back,
And yet, caught within timelessness.
Flying back to moments, haunted by,
In vain trying to hide from love within.

That soul will find another mate, 
Another sweet little loving friend.
Yet that void would remain,
A special place within, none could take.

The year that was 2012 !!

The year that was  2012 – An Intro !! 

2012 was an eventful year, with a lot of disappointments, some success and lot of things to learn. The year started off with a series of rejections, apparently my resume was not competitive enough as compared to other applicants who applied to those schools. So, that went there and I ended up through one of the saddest phases of my life (blog), which ended up pretty well I guess.

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Happy New Year

Oh, forgo the bygones, forget every pain,
A new year, a new dawn, every moment a gain.
Let’s dream of a future, a future so bright,
Daylight may fade, away from its light.

And amongst the happiness, amongst all the cheer,
Lets learn from the past, those lessons very clear. 
Lets foray into the future, & forgo every fear.
Have a happy, peaceful and prosperous new year !!

1920_2013 Happy New Year

Memories

कुछ बातें हैं की जो भुलाई नहीं जाती,
कुछ यादें हैं की जो, छुड़ाई नहीं जाती !
कुछ लम्हे थे, कुछ पल थे जो याद याद आते हैं,
क्यों गम, क्यों ख़ुशी के असों दे जाते हैं !!

Some moments refuse to pass,
Some memories refute to wither,
Some remembrances are for lifetime,
Tears in eyes in sadness & happiness alike.

Solitude

Sometimes in solitude, 
sometimes in loneliness, 
you realizes the powers, 
that lie hidden 
Sometimes in pain, 
sometimes in sorrow, 
in defeat, and anguish,
lie your greatest potential

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